it is going to be tough …

135 Views Mon, 25 Jul 2005 at 05:01 am

The fact is that it HAPPENED … and whatever one’s do, it can not be erased or changed.

The fact is that it HURTS … and the hardest part is the possibility that it might dramatically change my point of view, for good (though I am fully aware that this would not be what my conscience wants)

The only things that could be done are:
…ACCEPTING that it happened.
…UNDERSTANDING and FORGIVING (* but no, forgetting, as if in “running away” is not the best option here *) so that the pain would — hopefully — eventually fade away.
…TAKING LESSONS so that the same mistakes can be avoided in the future.

Still, it is going to be TOUGH. VERY TOUGH. Even tougher, considering this is not — in any circumstances — something to be shared with others.
But may the final outcome be the best for all of us.
* searching for helps and guidance from the Almighty, and from the one who I fully put my trust into *

— In the midst of the dusk. For the first time in years that I failed to shut out my mind.
— Thank you for letting me know. As painful as that is, I still believe that honesty and trust is what should be put over anything else.

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4 Comments »

#1 Dian's comment on Wed, Jul 27, 2005 at 05:09 am #

kenapa, Phen? Mau share?

#2 Administrator's comment on Wed, Jul 27, 2005 at 10:22 am #

Hmm… makasih atas tawarannya. * dan saya jadi tahu kalau saya akan selalu punya teman yang bisa memberi saran untuk masalah-masalah saya. That means a lot *

Tetapi masalah ini bukan termasuk salah satu yang bisa di-share, dan alhamdulillah ternyata masalah ini (mudah-mudahan) sudah bisa dianggap selesai dengan jalan pemecahan yang (mudah-mudahan juga) saya anggap terbaik kok.

#3 Dian's comment on Fri, Jul 29, 2005 at 05:00 am #

Ok. I trust you
All the best then.